It has to be said

I live in New Zealand.

Yeah, yeah, yeah I know you all know that but you don't understand; I've never said that out loud before now. (I just said it out loud to myself.) I am amazed by how raw my emotions still are but I guess I really shouldn't be because I'm a rather emotional person but still. I live in New Zealand. No, we may not have a house, proper jobs, still living out of suitcases but those are little things right? I guess. Because here we are living in Auckland, New Zealand.

And it's not half bad! It's beautiful beautiful beautiful. For autumn, the weather is amazing. To still be in flip flops (some days) is quite a treat. Had to bring Greg to a boat early this morning and so was graced with an amazing sunrise and rainbow on the way back to the house. Nice!

We are surrounded by family. There's water water everywhere. Horses, cows and sheep are never far away. Good food has been found (even an aged cheddar that rivals my favorite!).

And I drive around and think about you all and what I want to show you when you come visit. I have different days planned for different people; there's something for everyone! I'll have the calendar ready as soon as we get a house. So, you all enjoy your spring and summer and then start thinking about a visit to New Zealand!

Okay? Okay.

Right house wrong price

By about $60,000 at least. Oh, it's the house of our dreams... Our dreams!! We're going to make an offer but expect to be laughed right out of town but what else can we do? It is the house straight out of our dreams; why not aspire to our dreams? Right??

Dare I mention it???

When we were still living in the States, there was this house we saw for sale online. We had my sister in law go to the open house and have a look at it. She reported back that she really liked what she saw... Time went by and, next thing you know, it disappeared from the website so we assumed it had sold.

Now that we're here, we've driven by it and looked longingly at it wishing it was ours. Sunday was one such day only this time we wrote a note and stuck it in their mailbox saying that if they ever want to sell, give us a call...

Well.

Greg got a call this morning and guess who wants to sell!!!!

It never did sell; they had taken it off the market. We're going to look at it Sunday!

Ah...

So we're house sitting again in mission bay; this time for three weeks!!

We started the day with a dancing session to earth, wind and fire! What fun! Spent a wonderful day with Lloyd and my mother in law who I adore and now...

I'm ALONE!!! Pure bliss! And listening to music watching the sunset. The angst and everything else from the past week is not present in this day/moment/evening and I am very,very thankful. The God I love and do my best to serve is with me, always is and He is good.

Today

I need to start living in the present again. Not the past, not the future, just today. This very moment if that's all I can handle. Carpe diem. One day at a time. All that smack talk; it would do me good.

I Want to go Home

I'm too old for this. I had a perfectly wonderful life at home. The best friends one person could ask for. Lloyd had the best friend he may ever meet in his whole entire life. I had shops I loved to go to where people knew me. There were great restaurants we could go to and people knew us. I have never felt so alone. Ever. I am so sad it's ridiculous and I'm tired of being positive and waiting for it to all get good again. I am so tired.

I know I'll make new friends but they will never, ever replace the ones I already have. At home. Where I want to be. I know we'll have another great house someday and great shops and great restaurants and all that but I just don't want to hear it right now! Because everything was fine. Just. The. Way. It. Was...

The Season of My Discontent

Well, well, well. Waiting is the hardest thing, isn't it? Waiting for the right job to come along, waiting for the right house, waiting for Lloyd to come home from school... Okay, maybe not that third one! Lloyd started school yesterday! I'm told by his teacher he did, "Fantastically well"! How about that? He was so so ready to be with the other kids and make some friends and to LEARN! He's on a field trip today.

Nothing new on the search for a house. There's just nothing available in our price range. Everything is $800,000 or higher it seems. Ridiculous. We want a house of our own so badly!

Greg has been dayworking but that gig ended last Friday so now he's back to networking and we'll see what comes up.

Tough stuff but the days have been beautiful and we're keeping busy doing who knows what but the days are flying by.